The Traumatic Nature of Deconversion

Memory is unreliable when recounting old wounds, but I do know that the beginning of the end started with an email to an old professor in which I expressed: "I don't think I believe in the God of Christianity anymore," and ended with a Facebook post about deconversion, and an awkward, hard conversation at the … Continue reading The Traumatic Nature of Deconversion

Having a Form of Godliness… (The External Christian)

Dear Lovelies, I'm following a Facebook post by my friend in which he questions "what is the line between 'merriment' and 'sin' when it comes to Christians drinking?" This is an important question because there's a lot of discussion around this topic and many Christians disagree (and it's my personal opinion that Michael likes to … Continue reading Having a Form of Godliness… (The External Christian)

If You Were a REAL Christian, You Wouldn’t Doubt (Part 2): Is There a Reason to Doubt God, Ever?

On a Facebook thread I'm currently following concerning the need for good apologetics, as nonexistent apologetics and intellectual doubts are contributing to many leaving the Christian faith, someone made this comment: No one leaves the faith for intellectual reasons. Those who left were never of us 1 John 2:19.I am upset, but more so deeply … Continue reading If You Were a REAL Christian, You Wouldn’t Doubt (Part 2): Is There a Reason to Doubt God, Ever?

Why “God Loves Me” Isn’t Enough to Sustain Christianity

During a conversation I had with a friend last week, she expressed to me that she was doubting several things regarding spirituality and Christianity, as a religion, and what value it had to her personally. She told me that she no longer wanted anything to do with the Church, as her congregants are full of gossiping, … Continue reading Why “God Loves Me” Isn’t Enough to Sustain Christianity

Something Like Love (The Birth of a Flame)

It started or, depending on your view of things, ended Tuesday night. Watching ancient paper documents from long ago employments, along with other things like wood and paper plates, burn in a fire pit in the backyard of my group leader's house was, for lack of a better word, magical. There's something intriguing about seeing something … Continue reading Something Like Love (The Birth of a Flame)

Breaking up with God: The Aftermath

It's an odd thing, being in a relationship with someone, loving and caring for them, and then separating. One becomes two again. You avoid them as best you can, inwardly cringing and outwardly hiding if your paths happen to cross. The awkward conversations you have when you're not yet in the "we're still friends" stage. … Continue reading Breaking up with God: The Aftermath

Empathetizing with My Abuser

Dear Lovelies, Yes, you read the title right. No, I haven't lost my mind (not yet anyway). Just, let me explain. During a conversation I had yesterday with a friend, I realized why my abuser left Christianity. It was because of people who claim to be genuine Christians but are hypocritical, graceless, and so close-minded … Continue reading Empathetizing with My Abuser

If You Were a REAL Christian, You Wouldn’t Doubt

In my experience, there's one thing that is seldom, if ever, discussed in Evangelical Christian circles: doubt. If mentioned at all, it's said with a disapproving tone and usually accompanied with a head shake that is supposed to convey genuine sadness and grief over "that poor backslider" who had "such a strong relationship with Jesus", … Continue reading If You Were a REAL Christian, You Wouldn’t Doubt